I am not smart enough, strong enough, or whatever enough to do Keto. I stepped right past Ketosis into total dehydration and ketoacidosis. My kidneys shut down, and I basically tried to kill myself.
For dreams of skinny pants.
I’m quitting keto.
Any diet that has the potential to put me back in the hospital, is too XTREEM for me. I’ll try dieting again, but something where I can still eat pasta and tacos, and yes.. bread.
Maybe I won’t lose lots of weight. Maybe I won’t ever make it into those skinny jeans or self stay-up stockings.. but I’m going to listen to the plea I gave my mom when she kept ending up in the hospital due to her attempts at dieting.. I’d rather be alive and fat, than be dying of kidney failure and losing weight because I’m bedridden.
She died at 56, and I’d rather she’d weighed 20lbs more and given me another 10 years.
Jesus Christ.
ReplyDeleteOkay, my private family goal to get you a spice grinder for Solstice can be tabled. I was on board with that, and finding ways to work it into the budget, because (in my head) the issues that make ketosis a good diet mode for PCOS victims, I thought, might work well for other hormonal issues.
Obviously, I was wrong. Screw the skinny pants. You breathing is more important than skinny pants.
You know. over the years, I've shown some symptoms that suggest that I may be hypoglycemic to a small degree. And I really figured, all these other normal fat people I know are on this diet, and their worst problem is giving up pasta.
ReplyDeleteRight now, and for probably the next month and change (though Christmas), my goal is going to be eating solid food, and getting strong enough to walk to the store. Just repairing the damage done.
And after that, maybe I'll start thinking more about calories in vs out. I have the fitbit, and I do plan to keep using that. I want to walk more.
I messed up Keto.. and in part, I guess I'm in the small set of people for whom it's dangerous. But make no mistake, Keto wasn't the core issue here, I was.
I'll come up with a more sensible diet, that looks like 'buy the small instead of the large".. I'll walk more. I'll eat the foods I want to eat, and skinny pants be-damned. It was a mistake to start thinking in those terms, but my real mistake was not remembering what a delicate balance I live on.
I keep forgetting I'm kinda frail. And I fell. And thanks to the people in the ER, I got back up. I'll do it more sensibly next time, but not til I'm stronger.
Meters and strips are available pretty much everywhere these days. I did not think about blood sugar issues, or I would have suggested that you keep an eye on them in my last reply. :( Definitely not good that you went through that, but I'm glad you survived.
ReplyDeleteI do still recommend the book [on Amazon] Why We Get Fat by Gary Taubes. It's *not* a diet book. Absolutely *NOT* a diet book. What this book does is explain the scientific principles behind what in the diet makes us put on weight.
I'll also toss in a recommendation for a book called [on Amazon] Nourishing Traditions by Sally Fallon. This is a general cookbook, but also...NOT a diet book. This is geared more to getting back to basics *without* using per-processed foods - pretty much, eat the way our great-grandparents (and beyond) used to eat.
If you can only afford one of the two....get the Taubes book, hands down. Cookbooks can wait. :) It'll be good reading over the holidays and beyond, and once you read it you can decide where to go, dietary speaking, once you get stronger.